3rd week to frankfurt

I am glad to say that I have been able to make it through this week, it has been a very challenging week and I hope it will help me in the future and that I learn from it.

This week I had a little bit of all the bad things that can happen to screw up a training week. I have had to miss a session and reschedule, I have not felt good, myself esteem is very low, I even was able to enjoy some left foot discomfort that has been with me for a couple of weeks and my mind was not focus, I hope I am not missing anything because the list is quite bad.

I started the week pretty happy because I was about to start the last week with weights. So yes I am done with my weight lifting program for the season or at least until IM Frankfurt, I am quite excited to see some results to the hard work and now it is time to convert all this training into performance.

But everything started to get complicated on Tuesday, that’s the day that a one hour meeting became in an awful all afternoon meeting. The meeting itself was not the best but it is not only that the problem is that it though off all my week. I had to reschedule so the rest between strength training had to be shifted to have less rest so I could fit in the missing session as it was a very important session for the upcoming marathon and that meant that I was not fully recovered for the series on Friday and I was flat out for Saturday’s ride.

This week I started to feel that my legs were not fresh from the beginning but they just went to worse. Also my low self-esteem was set to the roof and since then I have not felt good physically and mentally. On Wednesday I had to pull off the water after only half the session because I was cold and I was not feeling very well. Something similar also happened on Thursday and I have been taking pills to feel better and I don’t like this at all.

And just when I thought it just couldn’t get any worse we had a cold Saturday where I had to wear the long tights and they are tide, I could not go very fast, my legs did not have enough juice to go fast and I met a cycling team from Poland that I joint a little bit and it was a disaster when we headed a port, they were one month away from the beginning of the season and I have just started to train 3 weeks ago towards the first tri goal of the year, I just could not feel more humiliated. I could not produce any wattage at the beginning of the climb and they just left me behind with ease.

Next week will be very important, I need to overcome the adversities and be ready to race. I need to raise my readiness and race spirit. I need to want to do well and then perform. There are some aspects that I still need to work on but the physical work is mostly done.

Sometimes I don’t understand you, the inputs that I get are contradictory and I am confused, well right now I am devastated, confused is not the word anymore. I don’t understand your actions with your words and I don’t know how much time is time. I know what a month is but not what time is. I feel bad with the situation in a very bad moment of the season this is not good. I know what I want but I don’t think I am ready to fight for it when I only hit a wall. I am getting tired of hitting this wall, it is too hard and I just hope that it is not a payback. I understand that I might not be the most trustworthy person but this is who I am and I tried to make it better but you did not want it anymore. I wish I still had some hope.

Next Sunday I have a race finishing in St Feliu, it would mean a lot to me if I could see you at the finish line. There are a lot of changes that I would like to do to my life but they depend whether you are there or not.

Let’s pump up to get those legs and mind ready to face this 26.2mi race ahead of me. It will be a fast one probably I hope I am ready and I hope I can focus and forget about the rest, I have a week ahead of me to achieve it, time to get psychologically ready, the battle will be hard and I want to make.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WaazNvsI-I