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I have started to train a Little more this week. I went from a 10h week to a 12 hours week. I wanted to start slightly slower because I did not want to have much problems or being too tired at the beginning.
I have also started doing yoga. So far one session per week and I did the flexibility routine but I might move it to strength training since it is the beginning of the season.
I am still not running so I all my session were riding and swimming. I did four swims and four bike rides. And even though they are supposed to be easy they were quite demanding to me because I am not who I used to be anymore. That is why I am training again, so I can take my fitness to a peak.
Since Friday I am training again with my HR but I have not taken much attention to it.
Last week I thought I was getting closer to my ideal weight but it I not happening yet. I do not know why but it is not happening yet. Sure I lost a little bit of weight, I look fitter but not ready yet.
My heel sometimes feels better and sometimes feels bad. I have started to use the insoles and it should heal faster now. I have been for over two weeks taking meds and I am not over.
I do not know if my swims were tough but it looks like it is hard for me to swim two days in a row, the same for the bike but I know sometimes I push it on the bike and the timing was not great, because this week I rode twice within 14h and that is why I was not fully recovered. I had a very busy agenda and I had to do it that way.
Also I played a little bit of pitch and putt but I do not consider it training because it was very easy and we only played 14 holes, and since it is not golf we did not walk much. Although it was good to be pain free on the golf course. The grass was soft and I could walk very well.
On Sunday I swam from Premià de Mar to El Masnou, slightly more than 4km against the current. It felt longer and more exhausting than Cap Norfeu, even though it was 20mins shorter. The water temperature was 14ºC and on some point in dropped down to 13ºC. I had swum the day before and I was not feeling too fresh, but it was only a training session. It was not a race; it was just time to enjoy the cold water. It would’ve helped to know the skyline of El Masnou to not get that anxiety of arriving but overall it was a good day.
This week my sleeping disorders have come back again and some days I have not been able to sleep more than 5h with no nap at all. And the average sleeping time is probably around 6h per night. I do not know the cause. I might be nervous for what is coming over. I might be tired to be here. I might be anxious because of my heel. There are a million reasons for such behavior. I hope I will be able to sleep well again.
Last Monday was a sad day and I received some inputs that made me realize how many mistakes I have made in the past. I do not know why I got what I got and the way that I got it. It is just baffling me. How long will it take her to understand that it hurts me? There are easier ways to say things that are not as personal. I do not think this time was something that would urge to tell me.
Every time I think of her I run into more self doubts.
On the other hand I am tired of the things that are happening with me and the way I am talking to people. Do I expose myself too much? I feel like I am being stalked and I do not want to.
I need to tell someone to leave me alone in a nice way. How can I do that? How can I do that when I have not showed any interest for a long time? And her talk is so ridiculous that I even feel sorry for her because nothing makes sense.
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