4th week of the 2011 season

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I started the week with a yoga session just to gain some strength and to hit it off. The yoga I haven’t noticed much improvement but I have just started doing them. I am not trying to master it, or to enjoy, I just want to get some strength and flexibility out of them.

On Tuesday I had to start with some cycling in the morning because I would not have time to do everything that was scheduled. Then I went to the swimming pool. I was a little nervous when I was swimming because I had a meeting afterwards and I was in a time constraint.

On Wednesday, I took a fairly long ride. I don’t know why my left leg hasn’t been feeling great lately. If I don’t warm up well enough and I try to stand up a have a little bit of discomfort but once I have it going everything is ok.

Normally on Thursdays I get to swim in an Olympic sized pool, I like it and they also allow me t use all the gadgets that I want. Once again, as on the bike, my shoulder needs to get a good warm up.

I also got to talk to someone who relieved few of my problems but now I have to make it up.

Then Friday came along, it used supposed to be an easy day and it was, easy swim and easy ride, just to get ready for the weekend.

On Saturday I was very lazy and I did not get on the bike until late in the evening. It was a very long ride, longest ride of the prep phase. It felt very easy at the beginning but as the session moved along it got harder and harder. At the end I felt quite tired of riding. I had a little chat while I was on it, I answered the phone, and I had drinks. What else can I ask for? This is the beauty of indoor training.

On Sunday I had a swimming test. I am quite happy that I hold it pretty well the whole time, although I thought I would be faster. I dropped 4 seconds from the previous test but I need to improve a lot more.

Have my sleeping disorders disappeared? Not yet. I am still having trouble with my sleep. I can’t sleep well, I can take a nap but it doesn’t matter whether I take a nap or not sometimes I can sleep at night and some other times I can’t.

This was supposed to be my last prep week but has my heel recovered? Not yet either. So I might not be able to start the Base 1 phase or I’ll have to split it into the different sports. I haven’t decided yet.

I went to the doctor and she told me to get some ultrasound sessions, and to take the meds again. I have asked another doctor and it seems like the insoles are a good idea, I am wearing them and even though they have been refitted twice to me I am still not feeling good. Although there are moments were my foot seems to be ok, there are others where it doesn’t.

On Tuesday’s meeting I had to listen to so many lies that my ears could not handle it. Who I thought to be a friend turned out to be a scam. I can’t believe I thought we could get along well. I sent you an email and I got nothing and it just makes me think that I was right.

On the other hand I have been trying to reach and old friend of mine and he seems to be out of the blue. Why don’t you pick up the phone?

I have realized that I have no life at this moment and it looks like I am not going to have one anytime soon. I don’t have a job, it looks like it is going to be hard to get one and I probably don’t even want one.

I can’t look to the future without her. She is still very present in my life. I have this crazy idea of us some day. I know she just lives in my mind. She is not real. It has been too long but I still would like give it a chance.

Many women have stopped talking to me and I feel guilty. I would like to give them a chance. I don’t know if they had ever felt anything for me and I am not sure that what I felt was real, but I keep thinking on them. Every once in a while I have a memory of us together in my head and it makes me sad to think that I’ll never talk to her again and I won’t have a chance to know if I still have feelings for her. And what would happen if I had feelings at that moment and I feel I have to tell her?

Lately I have been talking to someone a lot but even though we spend a lot of time together at this moment I don’t want anything else than friendship with her. I am happy to keep it like that so far.

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