week 11 in review

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First of all, congratulations to Marcel Zamora for winning his 5th straight Ironman Nice.

Training is getting harder. I have started the build phase and it means that I've started to improve my anaerobic threshold. I get to do some sprints and things like that. I also have two brick sessions and an extra swim. The swim has also improved from 2500m per session to 3km per session.

Saturdays will be a very big day until I leave Munich, I had to shift Friday's swim to Saturday morning and when I come back from the pool I go for a long ride with a short run.

Today, Sunday, I had a chance to race a half marathon instead of running my 75mins, well I had a hard time deciding whether to race or not and when I when to sign up I could pay with a credit card so I decided not to join. I ran 20km in 76mins this morning.

This week has been one of the toughest for me. I am getting really tired of this country, its people and everything. I have not accomplished my goals, I will not be able to accomplish them and everything is very irritating. The situation, my everyday life, missing you, ... I won't to leave. Germany is not for me at this moment, there is nothing holding me here but some pride, I think that is the only thing that will make me stay one more month. There is something that could make me change my idea but it will rarely happen and I am not sure what my answer would be right now.

I would like to start from scratch again. I don't know if I'll be able to do it. I hope so. I guess I'll never have what I wanted. Well it is OK I'll find new and better goals.

Why do you care whether I do something wrong or not? it is my business if I want to go through a red light no need to honk at me. Why don't you keep the line when a new cashier is opened?why do I always have to move because you are enable to do so? Why can't you say hi when I do so and you see me?...

I miss you very much, I don't know if I miss something that I have made in my mind or I really miss you, but I would like to see you badly. You make me feel somehow I have not felt for a long time. I am afraid to ruin it. How do I know if we both want the same if you never tell me what you want? My mind is about to explode from thinking of you and everything we could do together. In my head it looks pretty good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzNbunHjJkU