week 20 in review

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The more I train the tougher the race looks to me.

It was a long week with plenty of things to take care of, training things and regular chores such as going to Barcelona to visit some flats to live next school year.

After a week with no pickups, sprints or anything I rejoined them. The sessions get tough, it is not just running at z2, picking up to train 3 minutes at z4 is hard but when you do several of them it gets very tough.

I have also raised my swimming mileage from 3km per session to 3.5km per session. Although I was not able to swim on Tuesday because my flat mates and I went to Barcelona I did swim Thursday and Friday. According to the schedule it should take me 1h, just as long as it used to take me the previous mileage, how am I supposed to swim half a km faster in one week? It ain’t happening.

On Saturday I had the same workout as the previous week, 4h bike plus 45mins run. This week I took some air cartridges, thanks god because I did not like going without them, I had spare tubes but I did not have air to pump them up; I also took some energetic gels from decathlon, I liked the flavor and the system was pretty good, the downside was that the package is too big for such small gel quantity and it is hard to get everything into your mouth. I started to ride at seven in the morning so I would not suffer as much as last week and I did not suffer that much indeed. It was quite windy and I believe I was maybe 3km slower than last week, instead I was able to run much faster, 4mins 15secs for 45mins. I was extremely happy with the pace. And because I had more water, I started earlier, I had the gels and I trained for another week I felt much better after it, although I think the main reason was because of the early start.

On Sunday I ran 2h, I started early so I would not feel the heat as much. It was very windy and I did not feel much of nose wind or tail wind rather than cross wind. I have also run most of the time close to a fountain just in case I would run out of water but I did not have that need. At some point I started to have some stomach discomfort but it was not as strong as it had been while I was in Munich and it did not stop me at all, although at some point I thought I would need to stop. In the end I ran 2h at slow pace, expected because my legs were tired from yesterday.

Even though everyone tells me how fit I look and how thin, I don’t see it. I have checked all pictures of me, from 1year ago, and I don’t see that much of a difference, I believe I have a bigger back and shoulders, other than that I don’t see much more differences. Where I do see a difference is in my performance, I can run faster and longer, I can ride for hours and I swim faster, better and longer. So overall I am in a much better shape but I don’t see it on the outside, I see it according to my performance.

Sometimes it is very boring that people look at me like I am weird. Some people have the will to do some stuff, right now I can train for long but it hasn’t come yesterday, I have put a lot of time and effort. It is not impressive that I can ride for 4hours when I have been increasing my riding time for the last 4 months, it would be impressive if I could ride for 4h if I had been sitting on a chair for the last 4 months.

I don’t know what is wrong with me, I’ve been seeing this girl for the last 3 weeks I believe and I can’t make a move. Is it her problem or is it my problem? I mean don’t I make a move because of her or because of me? If I do make a move where does it take us? I am not sure I can start something with her, well I am sure there are only a few girls that I would be able to start something with them, but it could only happen with them because life would be easy, some of them live close to me or far away, and it would leave me plenty of time for myself, but what could happen with someone who lives half way? Would I get distracted as always? I don’t want to hurt her and I am afraid I will. And I don’t know if I admire her as much as I should do. The girls that I would consider having something with them are people that I don’t only like them physically, I also admire them, and I am not sure I admire her. I have a huge dilemma before me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gac6EarRLUM