153
Just past the equator of the training. I have trained as many weeks as there are left to the race.
This last week I started to go back to training after a one week break because of the injury. The first two days of the week I only trained 1/3 of the load, the 3rd I trained 2/3 of the load and since Friday I started to train normal, well it was not quite normal because I haven't done the high intensity work.
My body is funny. One day it is injured, the next day seems to be fine after more stress. It is unpredictable. I don't know how to treat it, and I hate it. I expected to have pain today, instead it wasn't too bad as I had expected.
Yesterday it was a very tough day, it was raining outside and I had the longest brick so far. So I had to ride inside for 4h and then it wasn't raining, I would've gone out anyway, and I ran for 30mins at a pretty good pace.
Today it was a different story, I was slower than ever. I hadn't been this slow for more than 6 months or more. Although it is understandable I did not like it. I enjoyed the run. It was nice, not to hot, a little windy and too many people, but it was funny going faster than some cyclists in such a slow pace for me, hehe. Some kids were also funny chasing me, hehe.
Also I am getting fed up with all the comments that people make to me. We all fit in the road, and I have the right to go slower or faster but I have as much right as you do. And if you don't like it, go somewhere else. And if you see me going towards you, fast, and you can squeeze to the side so we can all go through why don't you do it? And why at some other venues you just try to squeeze in like a little noiseless rat? You guys need to be more tolerant. Or maybe I should not belong here, and that's what is going to happen, I believe. I hope you all are happy.
This week I have had a lot of problems sleeping. I haven't slept well at all and it bothers me. I don't know why I can't sleep well. I can't take naps, and I also get to bed tired but I can lay down for hours and it is a pain in the ass. I'll try to go to the doctor when I go back home.
I wish I could've talked to you this week. I had this urge to call you. I did not do it. I miss you a lot. And I wish we were together. I don't like this situation, I don't like it at all. I have been distracted for awhile but now I know I want u and no one else.
I fell alone and abandoned by you. I need you. Even though I had weird thoughts and u weren't in my mind as much as you should have been I have realized that I like you more than anything else and I wish we had never separated. I know u'll never be with me but it is something I'll live with.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_-XychEyz8
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
week 14 in review
153
Scheduled training time 13h. Trained time? 35mins. I had injured myself below the knee and I had to stop working out for a week. It was a major drawback.
It's been a week where instead of playing with pull buoys and paddles I have played with ice packs. The first two days I was scared because the pain was getting worse and the it started to get better.
Saturday I did not feel anything and I was very happy. Oh boy on Sunday, all my fears rose and I felt discomfort, I am sure it was mental, because I was perfectly fine on Saturday, I did not stress it or anything and I felt the discomfort while at home. I decided to rejoin the program and I trained. I only worked one third of the scheduled training so I rode the bike for ten minutes and I ran for 25mins, both painless.
I ran with my watch only, no HR belts, no food pods, nothing. Same on the bike, no cadence pods, nothing. I felt out of shape and form. Specially form. I did not like the way that I was running, I felt different, and it looks like I am rocking my hips a lot lately and I don't know why and if it is normal.
I am getting very tired of the people here, they want let me train in peace. If the road is wide enough why do I have to move when it is much easier for the other one to do it? I have my reasons to do what I do, a lot of times the road is tilted and I needed to even the tilt on both legs. Things are very frustrating.
Also this week has been hard on my food intake. I need to eat a lot or I feel hungry but I had to control everything I was eating I needed to control my weight. I think I have put one or two kilos that I hope to shave them off very soon. Since I could not move I could not even walk, nothing it was very hard. I don't know for fact if I have put on the extra weight but at least it feels like it.
Since I could not train I had a lot of time with myself and I thought about you more than I expected. I miss you. I think on all the mistakes I've made and it just made me feel worse. I don't know how to act. I needed you but you just weren't here for me. I know my problems have never been yours but I needed a friend and you just weren't here.
I think I have made a mistake and I may make another one anytime soon. I just don't know how to handle the situation. You have disappeared right when I needed you the most. Gone! Why?
Has there ever been anything with you and me or it has just been in my mind like always? Have I ever loved you or I just fantasized about you?
I am getting older and I don't know what I really want. Maybe, what I want is not compatible. One day I think of leaving with you and the next day I dream on being in SD and next day I just need to finish everything in Barcelona and next day I am planning to go to NZ. How do you fit in here?
I have also took balance of my last year and I realize I have not accomplished any of my goals, well two of them were just too easy, and I valueless myself. Was it a good idea to come? should I have never come to Munich and my stay in Frankfurt was enough?
Yesterday I have talked to two good friends and I thank them for taking care of me whilst we live so far apart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4
Scheduled training time 13h. Trained time? 35mins. I had injured myself below the knee and I had to stop working out for a week. It was a major drawback.
It's been a week where instead of playing with pull buoys and paddles I have played with ice packs. The first two days I was scared because the pain was getting worse and the it started to get better.
Saturday I did not feel anything and I was very happy. Oh boy on Sunday, all my fears rose and I felt discomfort, I am sure it was mental, because I was perfectly fine on Saturday, I did not stress it or anything and I felt the discomfort while at home. I decided to rejoin the program and I trained. I only worked one third of the scheduled training so I rode the bike for ten minutes and I ran for 25mins, both painless.
I ran with my watch only, no HR belts, no food pods, nothing. Same on the bike, no cadence pods, nothing. I felt out of shape and form. Specially form. I did not like the way that I was running, I felt different, and it looks like I am rocking my hips a lot lately and I don't know why and if it is normal.
I am getting very tired of the people here, they want let me train in peace. If the road is wide enough why do I have to move when it is much easier for the other one to do it? I have my reasons to do what I do, a lot of times the road is tilted and I needed to even the tilt on both legs. Things are very frustrating.
Also this week has been hard on my food intake. I need to eat a lot or I feel hungry but I had to control everything I was eating I needed to control my weight. I think I have put one or two kilos that I hope to shave them off very soon. Since I could not move I could not even walk, nothing it was very hard. I don't know for fact if I have put on the extra weight but at least it feels like it.
Since I could not train I had a lot of time with myself and I thought about you more than I expected. I miss you. I think on all the mistakes I've made and it just made me feel worse. I don't know how to act. I needed you but you just weren't here for me. I know my problems have never been yours but I needed a friend and you just weren't here.
I think I have made a mistake and I may make another one anytime soon. I just don't know how to handle the situation. You have disappeared right when I needed you the most. Gone! Why?
Has there ever been anything with you and me or it has just been in my mind like always? Have I ever loved you or I just fantasized about you?
I am getting older and I don't know what I really want. Maybe, what I want is not compatible. One day I think of leaving with you and the next day I dream on being in SD and next day I just need to finish everything in Barcelona and next day I am planning to go to NZ. How do you fit in here?
I have also took balance of my last year and I realize I have not accomplished any of my goals, well two of them were just too easy, and I valueless myself. Was it a good idea to come? should I have never come to Munich and my stay in Frankfurt was enough?
Yesterday I have talked to two good friends and I thank them for taking care of me whilst we live so far apart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4
Monday, July 12, 2010
week 13 in review
153
The more I train the harder I find to meet my goals. I also realize how hard an ironman is.
I started this week highly motivated. But since the 1st session I did not like the form. My running was not in a good form, it felt like my hips were rocking too much. I felt slow in the pool and out of shape, weird. And the worst happened on Thursday why I was on the trainer doing high intensity work, I felt a little bit of pain under my knee, it didn't feel too serious. Today I can say it was a mistake to keep going. No pain on Friday so I thought everything was fine. Here it comes Saturday though, I swam 3km with ease, slow but easy, it took me quite a lot to get in to the water. Then I went home and I went for a ride. It was a very hot day, about 34ºC. I was about 30mins in the ride when I felt the same as Thursday but I thought it was just a minor discomfort and I did not pay attention to it. I rode for about 3h doing 5mins of high intensity work at the end of the ride and I transitioned to run. During the ride I drank 3 bottles of sports drink and one before the ride and I still felt it wasn't enough, and I took some water for the run. I started to run very fast, 3.30mins/km, and soon I realized it was too fast so I slowed down to a solid 3.45mins/km-3.50mins/km. It was very very hot, it felt like my feet were burning, I was running on embers. At about 20mins in the run I felt like I was hitting the wall, so I poured all the water on me and I started to feel a lot better. I finished the run pretty well, much better than 10 minutes before. I drank a lot when I got home and everything felt ok.
But oh boy on Sunday, yesterday. I started to feel a little bit of pain about 7cm below my kneecap I wanted to try if I could run, I lasted 6 minutes, it was then when I realized what an idiot I am. I should had never run yesterday. I came back home and I am playing with the ice pack, gels and pills ever since.
I am not sure how long it will last because today it feels worst than yesterday, I can hardly walk and it is painful.
My goals my be over. I have started to think about canceling the ironman. It is a difficult moment right now. If it lasts more than a week I don't know what I'll have to do. This time feels like a much more serious injury than the one before. We'll see.
Nothing feels like before. I liked what we were doing but it looks like it has changed. I think I made a mistake on Saturday but I can't change it now. I hope you will forgive me if it doesn't like you.
The media through which we communicate is not the best to express feelings or to find ironies. It is really hard. I don't want to make the same mistakes again. I liked you and I like you but I am not sure why we behave the way we do and why things have shifted so much. I am scared to go farther, to take make that extra step. I have crossed the line before and it did not go well for me, why should I try it again? And now your schedule is way much different than mine, I think everything will cool off, if there has ever been anything because I don't know how you feel and I've never known it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEGt-Vzl2Ws
The more I train the harder I find to meet my goals. I also realize how hard an ironman is.
I started this week highly motivated. But since the 1st session I did not like the form. My running was not in a good form, it felt like my hips were rocking too much. I felt slow in the pool and out of shape, weird. And the worst happened on Thursday why I was on the trainer doing high intensity work, I felt a little bit of pain under my knee, it didn't feel too serious. Today I can say it was a mistake to keep going. No pain on Friday so I thought everything was fine. Here it comes Saturday though, I swam 3km with ease, slow but easy, it took me quite a lot to get in to the water. Then I went home and I went for a ride. It was a very hot day, about 34ºC. I was about 30mins in the ride when I felt the same as Thursday but I thought it was just a minor discomfort and I did not pay attention to it. I rode for about 3h doing 5mins of high intensity work at the end of the ride and I transitioned to run. During the ride I drank 3 bottles of sports drink and one before the ride and I still felt it wasn't enough, and I took some water for the run. I started to run very fast, 3.30mins/km, and soon I realized it was too fast so I slowed down to a solid 3.45mins/km-3.50mins/km. It was very very hot, it felt like my feet were burning, I was running on embers. At about 20mins in the run I felt like I was hitting the wall, so I poured all the water on me and I started to feel a lot better. I finished the run pretty well, much better than 10 minutes before. I drank a lot when I got home and everything felt ok.
But oh boy on Sunday, yesterday. I started to feel a little bit of pain about 7cm below my kneecap I wanted to try if I could run, I lasted 6 minutes, it was then when I realized what an idiot I am. I should had never run yesterday. I came back home and I am playing with the ice pack, gels and pills ever since.
I am not sure how long it will last because today it feels worst than yesterday, I can hardly walk and it is painful.
My goals my be over. I have started to think about canceling the ironman. It is a difficult moment right now. If it lasts more than a week I don't know what I'll have to do. This time feels like a much more serious injury than the one before. We'll see.
Nothing feels like before. I liked what we were doing but it looks like it has changed. I think I made a mistake on Saturday but I can't change it now. I hope you will forgive me if it doesn't like you.
The media through which we communicate is not the best to express feelings or to find ironies. It is really hard. I don't want to make the same mistakes again. I liked you and I like you but I am not sure why we behave the way we do and why things have shifted so much. I am scared to go farther, to take make that extra step. I have crossed the line before and it did not go well for me, why should I try it again? And now your schedule is way much different than mine, I think everything will cool off, if there has ever been anything because I don't know how you feel and I've never known it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEGt-Vzl2Ws
Sunday, July 4, 2010
week 12 in review
153
I have found it very hard to train this week. It was an adaptation week, so I dropped 1h from last week's schedule. It took me ages to get on the bike, or to go out to run or I could sit on the edge of the pool for minutes just waiting to be mentally ready to train.
Once I was able to start training I did well, I trained hard and best of it, I enjoyed it. The only problem was to make the first step.
For instance, Saturday which is a very big day until I go back home, I swam 3000m straight in 58mins and a half. It took me a lot of time to start swimming but once I started it was only tough the for the 1st ten minutes, then it started to ease off until the last 500m when I started to feel the session. Then I went back home, eat a little bit and I rode the bike, I went further out, the bad thing is that it was windy with crosswinds, nose wind, and tail wind so I don't really know what to think but it was a good ride. I had changed my areobars's position, I lifted a little bit and I think it was easier on my back. Then I came back home, left the bike and transitioned to the run, I felt like flying, I transitioned in about 2 minutes and I left the house running at 3,20mins/km and I sustained and average of 3.30mins/km through the entire 15mins run. I had taken two bottles of sports drink on the bike and I drank water at home and I felt I needed something to drink during the run because it was a very hot day.
Sunday's run was very windy, cloudy but hot. It was only a 1h run but I was very slow. I ran the regular course and it took me 61mins30secs to run it, which it is a lot. Although for some reason I felt like I had nose wind the whole time, a very weird situation.
I don't like the situation that I am living. I am here in Munich and you are there. I hardly know from you and it kills me. Maybe the problems that I had this week with training were because of that.
I don't know what you do and you seem to no longer want to know about me. We used to be closer and I want that back. But I wish I was next to you at this moment and I wish you would feel the same way.
I am tired of thinking and I need you. I would like to be with you, but I know it has its risks and it can be very hard to do it but I think it could work out well. I miss you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSB3crVOZIw
I have found it very hard to train this week. It was an adaptation week, so I dropped 1h from last week's schedule. It took me ages to get on the bike, or to go out to run or I could sit on the edge of the pool for minutes just waiting to be mentally ready to train.
Once I was able to start training I did well, I trained hard and best of it, I enjoyed it. The only problem was to make the first step.
For instance, Saturday which is a very big day until I go back home, I swam 3000m straight in 58mins and a half. It took me a lot of time to start swimming but once I started it was only tough the for the 1st ten minutes, then it started to ease off until the last 500m when I started to feel the session. Then I went back home, eat a little bit and I rode the bike, I went further out, the bad thing is that it was windy with crosswinds, nose wind, and tail wind so I don't really know what to think but it was a good ride. I had changed my areobars's position, I lifted a little bit and I think it was easier on my back. Then I came back home, left the bike and transitioned to the run, I felt like flying, I transitioned in about 2 minutes and I left the house running at 3,20mins/km and I sustained and average of 3.30mins/km through the entire 15mins run. I had taken two bottles of sports drink on the bike and I drank water at home and I felt I needed something to drink during the run because it was a very hot day.
Sunday's run was very windy, cloudy but hot. It was only a 1h run but I was very slow. I ran the regular course and it took me 61mins30secs to run it, which it is a lot. Although for some reason I felt like I had nose wind the whole time, a very weird situation.
I don't like the situation that I am living. I am here in Munich and you are there. I hardly know from you and it kills me. Maybe the problems that I had this week with training were because of that.
I don't know what you do and you seem to no longer want to know about me. We used to be closer and I want that back. But I wish I was next to you at this moment and I wish you would feel the same way.
I am tired of thinking and I need you. I would like to be with you, but I know it has its risks and it can be very hard to do it but I think it could work out well. I miss you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSB3crVOZIw
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