week 15 in review

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Just past the equator of the training. I have trained as many weeks as there are left to the race.

This last week I started to go back to training after a one week break because of the injury. The first two days of the week I only trained 1/3 of the load, the 3rd I trained 2/3 of the load and since Friday I started to train normal, well it was not quite normal because I haven't done the high intensity work.

My body is funny. One day it is injured, the next day seems to be fine after more stress. It is unpredictable. I don't know how to treat it, and I hate it. I expected to have pain today, instead it wasn't too bad as I had expected.

Yesterday it was a very tough day, it was raining outside and I had the longest brick so far. So I had to ride inside for 4h and then it wasn't raining, I would've gone out anyway, and I ran for 30mins at a pretty good pace.

Today it was a different story, I was slower than ever. I hadn't been this slow for more than 6 months or more. Although it is understandable I did not like it. I enjoyed the run. It was nice, not to hot, a little windy and too many people, but it was funny going faster than some cyclists in such a slow pace for me, hehe. Some kids were also funny chasing me, hehe.

Also I am getting fed up with all the comments that people make to me. We all fit in the road, and I have the right to go slower or faster but I have as much right as you do. And if you don't like it, go somewhere else. And if you see me going towards you, fast, and you can squeeze to the side so we can all go through why don't you do it? And why at some other venues you just try to squeeze in like a little noiseless rat? You guys need to be more tolerant. Or maybe I should not belong here, and that's what is going to happen, I believe. I hope you all are happy.

This week I have had a lot of problems sleeping. I haven't slept well at all and it bothers me. I don't know why I can't sleep well. I can't take naps, and I also get to bed tired but I can lay down for hours and it is a pain in the ass. I'll try to go to the doctor when I go back home.

I wish I could've talked to you this week. I had this urge to call you. I did not do it. I miss you a lot. And I wish we were together. I don't like this situation, I don't like it at all. I have been distracted for awhile but now I know I want u and no one else.

I fell alone and abandoned by you. I need you. Even though I had weird thoughts and u weren't in my mind as much as you should have been I have realized that I like you more than anything else and I wish we had never separated. I know u'll never be with me but it is something I'll live with.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_-XychEyz8