week 14 in review

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Scheduled training time 13h. Trained time? 35mins. I had injured myself below the knee and I had to stop working out for a week. It was a major drawback.

It's been a week where instead of playing with pull buoys and paddles I have played with ice packs. The first two days I was scared because the pain was getting worse and the it started to get better.

Saturday I did not feel anything and I was very happy. Oh boy on Sunday, all my fears rose and I felt discomfort, I am sure it was mental, because I was perfectly fine on Saturday, I did not stress it or anything and I felt the discomfort while at home. I decided to rejoin the program and I trained. I only worked one third of the scheduled training so I rode the bike for ten minutes and I ran for 25mins, both painless.

I ran with my watch only, no HR belts, no food pods, nothing. Same on the bike, no cadence pods, nothing. I felt out of shape and form. Specially form. I did not like the way that I was running, I felt different, and it looks like I am rocking my hips a lot lately and I don't know why and if it is normal.

I am getting very tired of the people here, they want let me train in peace. If the road is wide enough why do I have to move when it is much easier for the other one to do it? I have my reasons to do what I do, a lot of times the road is tilted and I needed to even the tilt on both legs. Things are very frustrating.

Also this week has been hard on my food intake. I need to eat a lot or I feel hungry but I had to control everything I was eating I needed to control my weight. I think I have put one or two kilos that I hope to shave them off very soon. Since I could not move I could not even walk, nothing it was very hard. I don't know for fact if I have put on the extra weight but at least it feels like it.

Since I could not train I had a lot of time with myself and I thought about you more than I expected. I miss you. I think on all the mistakes I've made and it just made me feel worse. I don't know how to act. I needed you but you just weren't here for me. I know my problems have never been yours but I needed a friend and you just weren't here.

I think I have made a mistake and I may make another one anytime soon. I just don't know how to handle the situation. You have disappeared right when I needed you the most. Gone! Why?

Has there ever been anything with you and me or it has just been in my mind like always? Have I ever loved you or I just fantasized about you?

I am getting older and I don't know what I really want. Maybe, what I want is not compatible. One day I think of leaving with you and the next day I dream on being in SD and next day I just need to finish everything in Barcelona and next day I am planning to go to NZ. How do you fit in here?

I have also took balance of my last year and I realize I have not accomplished any of my goals, well two of them were just too easy, and I valueless myself. Was it a good idea to come? should I have never come to Munich and my stay in Frankfurt was enough?

Yesterday I have talked to two good friends and I thank them for taking care of me whilst we live so far apart.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB7T3lJ3dZ4